Him: You're staring.
Me : Am sorry.
Him: No don't apologize. I wasn't complaining.
Me : Really?
Him: Tab3an. Da shi'i yisharafni. 7ad yitool?(It is an honor)
I smile at him but can't think of anything to say. A few, silent minutes later.
Him: What are you thinking?
Me : Lots of things.
Him: Ostor yarab(Allah preserve us). Like what?
Me : That we've been married for one year already. That I love you I guess.
Him: Excuse me? You guess?
Me : Well, there have been moments.
Him: Ah yib2a i7na kida binragi3 nafsina. (So you are reconsidering)
Me : Am just wondering how we're doing.
Him: How we're doing in what exactly?
Me : This marriage stuff.
He gave me a long look. I thought he was going to say something. But he didn't. A longer silence this time.
Me : Nothing to say?
Him: Kol sana winti tayeba.(Happy Anniversary)
Me : Winta tayeb.()
Silence yet again.
Me : Laish sakit? Za3lan?
Him: Wala za3lan wala 7aga. Bas inti bitfakari law konti bit7ibi wala la. Fana saybik ba2a ma3 nafsik ashof hatiwsali fain.
Me : Are you worried?
Him: Of course.
Me : Why?
Him: Wallahi talama elmowdoo3 3andik mi7tag morag3a meen 3arif? Mish yimkin makoonsh it7abait aslan?(If you're reconsidering then maybe you never loved me to start with.)
Me : La yasidi it7abait jidan. Wo lisa.(I did love you very much. Still do.)
Him: Illy yi7ib mish biyragi3.(Then you shouldn't be reconsidering.)
Me : But there are bad times.
Me : I guess I still can't get over the way you said ab3atlik wara2tik(send the divorce papers).
Him: Tani ya L.?(We're going to discuss that again?)
Me : Sorry.
Him: Ya3ni ana ghaltan ini mish 3ayzik tiseebini?(So I'm wrong for not wanting you to leave me?)
Me : So you tell me you'll divorce me?
Him: Look, I said I didn't mean that. I was worried and angry & I just wanted you to come home.
Me : I don't want you to talk to me like that again. Ever.
Him: I won't. Wana asif ya sitti 3ashan bas ma tifdalish kida shayla mini. Khalas?
Me : Khalas.
Him: Id7aki ba2a(Smile). Ma yib2ash 2albik iswid.
So I smiled.
Him: Bas inti kaman mafish siya3a wi sahr bara liwa7dik min ghair ma t2oolili. (But you too should not stay out late without telling me.)
Me : And you shouldn't flirt with other women.
Him: Da kan yom iswid. (That was a black day(disaster)).
Me : So you won't do it?
Him: Howa ana itganint?(He'd have to be insane to do that)
Me : Can I stay out late if I tell you where I am?
Him: Ana ma7ibish kida.
Me : But you stay out late without me sometimes.
Him: Ah. Bab2a a3id 3al 2ahwa. Or out in the desert with the guys. I don't go out on the town without you.
Me : That's because you don't like to go out on the town anyway. You'd rather stay home & have sex 24 hrs.
Him(smiling): La 24 hrs ma aw3idkeesh(No I can't promise you 24 hr sex). I7na ah fara3na wi gamdeen wi kol 7aga bas el3a2l zina.
Which cracked me up of course.
Me : You know what I mean. I like to socialize more than you.
Him: Mashi bas ana ma ba7rimkeesh min 7aga. 3ala 2ad ma2dar bawadeeki matra7 ma inti 3ayza. Lama ab2a mish 2adir ba2a ma3laish ista7mileeni. Mish lazim ya3ni tis-hari bara kol yom.(Yes but I try to take you when I can. When I can't you should put up with me. You don't have to party late every single night.)
Me : But I like to see my friends.
Him: Bardo that doesn't have to be late at night. Bossi inti ti3mili illy inti 3ayza tool elyom bas bilail da bta3i ana. Eh rayi'ik?(Look you can do what you want all day but the nights are mine.)What do you think?
What do I think? On one hand am worried it might be like living with my parents & having a curfew again. On the other hand, it really seems to bother him & I enjoy myself more when we go out together anyway.
Sigh. If only I wasn't such a hyperactive insomniac. That's what makes me so restless at night.